I drive myself crazy a lot of the time. I over-analyze things, do things the hard way and get bogged down in the general minutiae of life. The even crazier thing is that I know I do it but sometimes I feel powerless to stop. I feel the need to "handle" things. I feel the need to exert control over everything that comes my way. I HATE to delegate. I HATE to give up control.
But, occasionally something comes along and proves to me that many things are completely beyond my control. And sometimes these things aren't so great - pregnancy at age 17, divorce, health concerns, etc. But sometimes, these things are so good and eye opening and soul touching that I know they are straight from Heaven.
Last night I had the honor of listening to the stories of a few phenomenal ladies at The Orchard Women's Night for January. Most of my fabulous friends from small group met me there. I am so blessed to have a group of girls who are all best friends to me. Love you Amanda, Amy, Brandy, Shannon & Victoria! The theme was surrender and it resonated so strongly with me.
Our first speaker talked about her recent adoption of a baby girl from China and how after raising three perfect biological children that God put it on her heart to adopt. She and her husband took 5 years before being able to totally surrender to God's will and bring Sophie home.
Will I always surrender? Probably not, I'm not there yet. But will I think more? Absolutely.
Have a great week!